I grew up on an "Ashram," essentially a commune where Eastern-oriented religion predominated. Years later when I looked back on those experiences with a more sociological eye I realized that half the members were, you guessed it, run-away Jews from Brooklyn. Was that a Jewish experience? I've come to think of it as a, perhaps ironically, quintessentially "American Jewish" experience...The point is, remember there are Jews all over this country and the world with similar 'Crypto-Jewish' experiences; its a fundamental part of our history and tradition and probably makes you more Jewish, not less.