This piece might interest you. It is long, scholarly, detailed, and sad. I confess I haven't read it. I am too old and tired. But you seem to be interested, and you are not old or tired.

http://www.commentarymagazine.com/viewarticle.cfm/1948--israel--and-the-palestinians-the-true-story-11355

I am so sorry for you because you have to be on a college campus a little longer. Since it is necessary, please milk the experience for some serious instruction, in, say, English literature, astronomy, biology or languages. You have your whole life to study religious matters, with Partners In Torah, for instance, at 1800-STUDY 42. That is free phone study, arranged for anybody, any time. I just hope you can find some honest, competent instruction, in a department that has escaped leftist political domination. This will not be easy.The "progressives" have been very thorough. They always get in their commercial. And just try disagreeing with them. You will know pain.

As for the "violence" in Sderot, Sderot is being continually SHELLED. You know, bombed. Not like at McSorley's either. Not that kind of bombed. Anyway good luck. You write well.